Rough starts, broken parts

Dinner with Sue on Friday night at PQ. Saturday rainy and grey, housework and chores. Little walk to the office furniture place - closed. Bought little flowers instead (daisies and impatiens). Slugs in the garden. Blackheath Halls on Sunday morning to listen to the director of Rossini's Count Ory explain his vision! Exciting :) Finally found a direct bus route. Mowed the lawn, oiled the deck. Late lunch with Mel at Jam Circus. My head is clearing. I thank the universe for a bit of stability amidst the mess. Found the most beautiful gardens (Brenchley Gardens)! Phoned mom while walking through.

Knowhow cloud backup 100%.

My new favourite place to sit: on my windowsil, facing the other way, watching the rain through the trees.

Finally watched East Palace West Palace. Courtrai crew dinner at Sodo with Jack. Smoking outside with M. Sidcup Symphony Orchestra and the 1.5 hour trek back home.

OMG I ACTUALLY WON THE QUIZ FOR MAY!!! \0/

Friday night. Tapestry with Ben. Good morning Vietnam. I start understanding - really understanding. Project Orange and proper goodbyes. Nothing is certain, but the choice has been made. It's me now - and I have to make it work. Alone - really alone for the first time ever.

Tickets booked to Rome with Sue.

Biiiiiirthdaaaayyyyy

Early Saturday morning start with Ocado and squash with D. Walking almost all the way back home! Gardening with D, chilling out on the couch watching the FA cup final Hull City vs Arsenal. Meeting up with J and Esh at the Clock House in Dulwich. Hunting for food an eventually finding a GBK at 23:00! Saturday BRAAI!! Epic sunshine, awesome friends and great fire, pool for the kids, Sangria, coleslaw, chops, chicken, boerie, potato salad :) Music! Expert mojito cocktails, happy happy drunkenness :) Surprise outing at lunch for coffee and cheesecake, people watching in the sun in Richmond. Long walk through Richmond park, drinks and Kerplunk! at The Forester in Hampton Wick, Dinner at the Albert near the park :) Passing out tired and happy. Sent Celeste flowers :) Softball match against the Bulldogs - 24-21 loss, but I caught someone out! The flying pig, The actress, The bishop.

Talk geek to me

Saturday morning in bed with Esh, suddenly burning to understand binary, hexadecimal and base notation... making sums and getting it right! \0/ Drums, video editing. Eurovision and the bearded Conchita. Z's birthday and the whole hog. Zizi's and the difficulties of relationships. Up and down up and down. Christopher the Saint. More video editing. Birthday party organisation!! Softball practice in the rain and TWO RUNS HOME!! (Not home runs... yet) IC's first leaving do at The Loft in CLJ. 2-4-1 cocktails and American diner food. On an absolute roll with the quiz. LONDON RAIDERS BLACK TEAM WIIIIIN! 26-8 :) Organising the braaaaaiiiii. London Bridge with L and bags of toys and biltong. IC's flashcards, leaving do at the ship till midnight. Kissing goodbye at the station

The unfolding, the undoing, the untying

Whitstable on Saturday for a surprise birthday on the beach with bubbles and balloons, volleyball, boulles, paddle and ball and a whacky little game involving miming. Strawberry Hill braai on Sunday, lying on the grass, playing with the boy, being with my girl. Kickboxing on the Rye in Peckham on Monday, pub crawl all along the best of Dulwich, catching the last ridiculous moments of a Liverpool vs Crystal Palace football match, trying a quarter pint of beer. Lying on the grass some more! Sudden opportunity to reveal a secret, and the massive repercussions that follow. Tuesday of total misery and some stupid mistakes. But none as huge as they could have been. Learning a lot about me, experiencing a world I would never have thought to. Taking advantage. Learning. Growing. Fat boys and the smell of Tenbury by the sea.

BACK IN THE LEAD for MAY! 3 points YEAH! Night out with Ben and the digi gang.

It's quicker to walk!

Said the rasta man on his bike to me at the bus stop at midnight waiting for a P12

Saturday of huge emotions and decisions. Sunday braai and red red wine. Monday. John's leaving do at Bodeans, Voting in the saffa elections in Trafalgar Square. Lunch with the fabulous Roz, BOOK OF MORMON! Important text conversations and a possible glimmer of light. Back home, then pingpong at The Old Nun's Head with Mel and Dan. Making up rules, running around the table playing in 3's and hosing ourselves. Possible breakthrough out of a bit of a dark tunnel?
1 point in the new month's quiz puts me IN THE LEAD! \0/ Hillarious attempt by both D and LP to help me in exactly the same question from the week before!

Contraddictive.com reads like a chapter in my own life.


Another walk over Honor Oak Hill in the night air after an impromptu pub quiz at the Old Nun's Head where we DIDN'T COME LAST.